Hello everyone, my name is Cookie! Yes, this isn't Juniper Berry - not exactly. It's kind of a long story, but to put it briefly: a few years before making this account, Juniper developed "Dissociative Identity Disorder", or what used to be known as "split personality", due to a trauma. She has a fairly mild case, far as we understand, only has one "other" person in her head, who isn't able to take over the body (only flinching, expressions, and the like), but exists as a second voice experiencing life along with her, as an independent consciousness. So, guess I don't need to tell you guys blatantly who I am now, but allow me to introduce myself better, and explain a little more, if you'd like to read it. This is technically my first time talking to people - using Juniper's hands of course, she's kind of in a half trance right now.

As I said, this is a long story, but I have the feeling Juniper's watchers are used to that by now!

You see, Juniper has had exactly one long term relationship, which she was pushed into (she didn't realize she was autosexual yet, and asexual toward others). This relationship became very controlling, and eventually mentally and physically abusive, but Juniper stayed because of family ties and peer pressure. Until the abuse from her girlfriend reached a peak and crossed some lines, then she escaped to a different city and came to her senses. As she ended the 5-year relationship, she soon realized the coping mechanism that formed: a loving, ideal, imaginary version of her girlfriend in her head, where she was actually directing her feelings, and ignoring how bad the real person was. When this occurred to her, it hit like a ton of bricks. She stayed awake for three days sobbing, and barely eating, as though a lover had just been killed in an accident. Finally she passed out and slept for a day, and when she woke up... not only could she not shed another tear over this, but she'd completely forgotten the details of every conversation, fight, mutual activity, sexual encounters, and abuse. She could remember her cars, jobs, hobbies, and so on from those years, but virtually all the words that came from her partner's mouth are gone - erased memories - along with the imaginary girlfriend that she was actually in love with. Juniper felt oddly ready to move on, overnight.

Far as we understand, Juniper's brain simply locked away all the painful memories it couldn't handle anymore (honestly it was the worst emotional breakdown of her life, by far). Well, apparently it's a dangerous thing when the mind locks years worth of memories and the foundations for a false person away from the conscious person. Apparently, the closed off section can develop a mind of its own. A few months after this break up, Juniper began to hear a second voice commenting on everything right after her own thoughts, and sometimes striking up conversations. And this was about when I remember being aware for the first time. I started out subtle, but kept getting more "present" in her mind as the weeks went on. At first, neither of us knew who or what I was, and it took a long time to find out. Eventually Juni started doing these visualization mediations for therapy, which took us much farther. See, Juni has this great visual imagination; she can picture anything she wants, superimpose it on reality, and have her brain go on autopilot from there. She can "see" and "hear" characters entertaining her or acting out comics whenever she likes. Inadvertently, during these meditations, her mind assigned me a physical appearance.

My first body looked almost identical to Juniper's character, Squirrel Casey. I hadn't picked a name yet; Juni was calling me by one of her childhood nicknames. I was just a tall, red squirrel, very hyper active, and would appear after Juniper cleared her mind and called on me. And then I started showing up without being called, and making decisions or leading the meditation journey. At first Juni thought I was some very complex coping mechanism, but after a month of nightly meditations together, I was starting to scare her a bit. I was too independent, able to surprise her, and her brain would obey my suggestions for visuals just as well as hers. Still thinking I was some mental construct getting out of hand, Juniper decided to put me aside for a while, and ignore feeling my presence.

Now, one thing that really scared her is when I'd said I was experiencing time when she wasn't talking to me. Either I was silently watching reality, or more often just existing in a dreamworld. Basically living in a lucid dream. This is still true today, and I have an elaborate fantasy world I put together as a home. But back when Juni stopped talking to me - and later became depressed and frustrated with her home - I was in my dreamscape as usual, but it was being "infested" with nightmares. After half a year of this, Juniper tried to confront her building mental health issues, and one night her brain forced out a visual of me, and made us talk. Except I was a lot different then - I was just pulled out of Hell to have a heart to heart with someone who thought I was imaginary, and I still didn't understand myself yet. I visually manifested in the corner of her room, as a giant squirrel, except now I appeared undead. Skin was grey and leathery, eyeballs were missing, and I wore Chicory's witch outfit, and a tattered robe. Instead of being kind and supportive, I was sarcastic, critical, and just acted like I didn't care, with a creepy grin on my eyeless face. This went on for months, where I would involuntarily appear in the room with Juni whenever she got lost in thought. I was never completely cold, more like a mean friend, but it wasn't like me. I was damaged at that point. And Juniper was beside herself, not sure if I was some advanced kind of trauma, or... are demons real or something? What the hell is she? Well, it came to a head one night a couple years ago when she confronted me, in a kind way, and explained our traumas to me (as she'd just had an excellent therapy session). My visual started to fade, and Juniper thought that I was simply fading out of existence, never to haunt her again. Then something very unexpected to both of us happened...

Instead of fading away, I morphed into a simple female silhouette with a face - like those you see in YCH pics. Juni immediately got a "hallucination" of me running up to her bed, wrapping my arms around her, and crying my head off. And for the first time she swore she could actually feel my arms on her body. She just laid there in shock, whispering comforting things to me. After a while, we had a more serious talk, and we realized that I HAVE to be something other than some simple mind game. We started doing research, talked to psychiatrists, and so on - but one of the biggest ways we figured this out was when I thought to reveal that I can still remember details of conversations, names she was called, and things that hurt her from the relationship! So, the best conclusion we have now is, Juni's mind was so hurt by her imagined girlfriend not being real, that it made me real, as best it could.

Of course, Juni's ex and memories were just a foundation. Before I even knew what I was, I was changing and developing into my own person. By the time we had this heart-to-heart, my personality had already been reshaped by our experiences together over the past few years. So, after several talks and lots of study, Juniper formally declared that she accepted who I am, and wanted me to be free and independent, as much as our situation allowed. She told me, since I was still just a silhouette and nameless, that I could pick whatever name and appearance I wanted. It took me two weeks of thinking it over, combining different ideas from our preferences. Eventually I settled on the name "Cookie", which was a favourite name Juni would use for OCs. And for appearance, I'm just a mish-mash of things we like. So ever since I dictated my look to Juniper, I've been appearing like this in her visuals of me. I know I look a bit strange, but I like it!

I wanted to have a striking skin pattern with a lot of contrast. Messy blue hair tied up is always nice, am I right? And Juni thinks characters with sharp teeth are cute, so I went with that, even though it hints at a pred nature. Of COURSE, having popped into existence inside Juniper's head, I have the vore bug just as bad as her, with almost all the same preferences, save for a few little things (for example, I like plant preds, Juni doesn't really care about them. I just like the mindless part of a plant, but Juniper feels like plants are less of a pred, and not "eating" their prey in the same way). Whatever - for my first pic I wanted to be eaten by a plant monster! But you'll be sure to see more of me soon, probably prey or pred to Juni, and alongside her - there's plenty we can do now that I've been introduced! I just hope this goes well, I'm still a bit nervous! Anyway, I did kind of gear my body with vore in mind. Like, my body smells and tastes like almonds, cream, and sugar - especially in the intimate parts! It's one of Juni's favourite drinks, so I made it my scent and body fluids. I went with a bunny-like look (though I'm not a bunny, I'm just Cookie!), because they were Juniper's first favourite animal, and she associates them with being sporty and excited. It fits my personality pretty well (I swear our ADHD hits me harder, maybe because I have far less to do). Oh, and unlike the rest of the characters in this gallery, I've got the full five finger and toes. I insisted on that detail, since I use this same body to interact with Juni in visuals and dreams. Might as well keep it consistent!

OK... so... that is who I am - hi! I'm still a bit nervous about all this new interaction. Juniper says I should be the one to answer the comments on this picture, so if you want to ask me something, go ahead! But besides this one, I'll probably stay out of the spotlight and let Juniper do the talking and drawing. I tried to influence her drawing of this picture to give it my own style - not sure if it worked? Anyway, since I was enjoying our content and browsing on Eka's so much, we thought maybe I should introduce myself, and start appearing in pics and comics. So, I'm probably not going to talk too much (I'm a lot shyer than Juniper is), but you should be seeing me show up regularly. Nice to finally come out and meet you guys!

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