While I've been rarely around here the last four, five years, I still have enough ties here to hear word that Throatwolf, an old writing/creative friend here, that I came to know some IRL... Has passed away.

He always wanted to keep his RL separate from his life here, so I'm limited in what I can say details wise, but...

An old friend here is gone. I will miss him and his writing, mightily.

Wow, really been that long (september) since my last blog post here? blarg >.<

Anyways, heads up to anyone who still follows my ramblings in these parts, I've posted the first draft prologue from the trilogy I am writing that has Im'Rhys as one of its main characters. The prologue just happens to have some vore in it, so... I can post it here and not feel guilty, lol.

Wow, three months have passed since my last blog post (here or anywhere). In that time I've dealt with the fall-out from winning that fantasy writing contest, several new pains that have mostly come n gone, and shambling, stumbling progress on The Home for Lost Souls. Additionally, through my son I've gotten to catch some of DBZ super, and learn about the current state of weight-lifting and its health foods.

But most of all a steady, though not always comfortable nor fun, progress on my psychiatric conditions. I may or may not have posted this anywhere, but about two years ago due what I felt was outright drug abuse by three consecutive psychiatrists, I got tired of all the side effects (drug induced hallucinations and paranoia you are about to violently die, are not fun when...
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Over on writing.com I indulged my long neglected love of fantasy, and entered a 2k word short story contest. Well, I found out this last Thursday, that I had won. But... Unlike the average person, winning things does not leave me... Happy and giddy, or least not for long.

Something I was... Mildly concerned with, about entering that contest, was if I won. See... due to trauma and abuse on several levels... Well though I have gotten better about it... Praise, complements... Can cause me guilt, shame, nightmares, etc.. And though I don't know if tonight will be a one time thing or just the beginning of something longer (days to weeks).

I have always found it curious and strange how the mind works, and how sustained child abuse from multiple sources... Can cause the...
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One of my favorite days of the year, never been wholly sure why. Of course since June was the best month of summer break as a kid, the habit just probably stuck, lol.

But the longest day of the year, first day of summer, a day of festival for our ancestors. And this year... It is also the night of the full moon <3

So hope I can go outside and enjoy this some tonight <3

Well today a long standing scene seed that always gave me issues, resolved itself. I just can't use it in my current writing project, lol.

In this scene seed, it takes place inside of a club that is run by a succubus, the place is named for her even, The Succubus. The succubus is Im'Rhys. Mostly it is a lesbian and bi-sexual place. It has stage shows as part of its entertainment. Pole dancing is part of this. But there is one type of stage show that involves "participation" from an audience member. The Succubus herself. At the end she face sits the "dancer" and apparently smothers and devours her soul. Hell, the "corpse" is even "dragged" away via a body bag.

Now for years, since I am not into necrophilia, this gave me...
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(A version of this exists elsewhere online, but hey, it sounded and felt too good writing n posting it to not share it in a community I have a lot more friends within.)

I hear all the time, write first, then worry about labeling the genre, since that is more a publication issue. One tiny problem. Every genre has their own rules, conventions, tropes, and violating those can cost you your audience and potentially nascent career before it gets off the ground.

Mind you, considering J.K. Rowlings did not writing Harry Potter AS children stories, but was later published as... But, considering she is like head-above-shoulders more successful than any other modern author, she makes a bad example. She could never write another word, and live comfortably the next hundred...
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Still forgetting to update this place. So need to work on that >.<

One of the reasons I've been forgetting to update this blog is I've been busy with reorganizing and revising my writing wiki. Due to a suggestion from Groblek (yes, I can name you here, evil one), as a way to organize my world building and... Oh so much else, ahahah, Groblek suggested a monster manual and manual of the planes for my works. Ironically, I had just completed a solid template for characters, and modifying that with some other considerations, for "monster entries" was not that hard. But the disorganized mess called my wiki needed a LOT of work first.

I'm down to "just" five world building pages, for the same exact project, to merge into one, and then I'm ready...
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Therapy, writing talk (IE, I listened to characters talking to each other during much of the drive to and from therapist's), and though sleep after this morning's early blog post was short, apparently anti-inflammatories kicked down most of the pain in my abdomen, and the short sleep did the rest. Feeling much better, thankfully.

Now I've just got five days before the deadline for that 2k word short story (that is so barely a short story it is sickening, they should have called it a flashfiction contest *sighs*), including writing, revising, and editing. Oh and badgering any beta reader friends if they have the time in that short of a window of time, ahahaha. But hey, fantasy genre, some D&D and Im'Rhys stuff crossing paths is just too much fun to NOT try a submission for...
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I hate days like today. Waking up with flashbacks of being screamed at, threatened, called a cancer on society, a retard, a faggot, "you need to die, go away", and that is just the stuff professionals have told me. The not being able to sleep consistently, abdominal pain the last two days (it happens about every month or so), and the fact I've told a small handful of doctors about it and all but one just walked out without even acknowledging I'd spoken. The one who commented told me "that is impossible, you can't have that, you are too young. Go home."

So yeah... Thankfully today is a therapy day, though as experience has shown me, there is very little anyone can do to help with flashbacks, panic attacks, jerking awake in cold sweats, aching everywhere. It...
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